My Story: Identity
One day, after coming home from the hospital, I got the idea for this musical. Songs started pouring out. Soon I discovered that I did, in fact, get the side effect of "lack of emission" which effectively meant I could no longer conceive children naturally. Within minutes of that discovery, however, we also discovered that my wife, Allyson, was pregnant. I began to write a journal, and I grew a full beard for the first time in my life.
A few short weeks later, Allyson suffered a miscarriage. My life was an emotional roller coaster ride. I began to explore myself. I decided to cut off my long hair, donate it to an organization that made wigs for kids who had lost their hair due to chemotherapy, and I had the remaining hair bleached blonde. My wife said she enjoyed sleeping with this new guy. A friend of mine, in shock after seeing my new look, said that he really wanted to be around for my mid-life crisis.
Allyson and I decided to visit the fertility clinic, where we began the procedure of In Vitro Fertilization. If you've never experienced this process, suffice it to say that it is very much a medical procedure. Poor Allyson had to give herself shots (sometimes I would give them to her) everyday, some just under the skin, but some deep into the muscle. After much pain and effort, we found it was all worth it when we saw that tiny little heartbeat. Allyson was pregnant once again. I thought my cancer ordeal was over, and life was beginning anew. We scheduled a vacation with great friends to celebrate.